In November I
experienced the fascinating transition from living-together-couple status to
engaged couple status. The proposal itself was pretty low-key. I had an
inkling of what was coming when Mike asked to borrow some money and didn’t want
to pony up any of the reasons. He finally spit something out about working with
my mom on something followed by a quick, “Now don’t ask any more questions!” On
the night of the proposal he asked me to make dinner for him (he does most of the
cooking in our house) and we were having a nice time sitting together when he
got up and shuffled around in his messenger bag. He came back to the table with
a goofy look on his face and I made some lascivious comment about getting to
touch him now and he said, “Nope, now it’s time for you to say yes or no!”
We spent the
evening sucking on cough drops (both of us were under the weather) and giggling
and poking each other and day dreaming about what we wanted our wedding to look
like. I couldn’t stop smiling and laughing and saying, “You want to marry me!”
Much joy and giddiness. As we daydreamed I learned that there is no end to
getting to know someone. I wanted a small wedding, he wanted big. I wanted no
bridal party, he wanted us to have a bunch of folks stand up with us. He wants
a tux. I don’t want to wear white. On and on. Some things were surprises and
some I expected. It was fascinating to hear about these things since we’d
really not talked about any of it before. I asked him why that was and he replied,
“You can’t give all of your cards away, you’ve gotta play some of them close to
the chest.” What a funny response and what an accurate portrayal of parts of
our relationship. I don’t know that we will ever know everything about each
other but I look forward to learning as much as we can.
The best part of all of it? We get to be
funny old people together! Almost immediately I wanted to start calling him my
husband but first we have a few things to take care of. Like deciding who to
tell first, and how. And we get to plan this big party.
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One our watercolor rainbow splash invites. These were a lot of fun to plan and design! |
As joyous as
our engagement is, it comes with the necessity to share our news
sensitively. Mike was married before and J’s mom will always be part of our life. I’ve invested a lot in having a
good relationship with her. As we discussed sharing news of our engagement J’s
mom was second on the list. (J was first!) We didn’t want her finding out from
our kid or on some social media site. Mike shared our news and once we knew that she knew we were able to share with the rest of our family. Like my mom.
As it turns
out, I hardly needed to tell my mom. I learned that my mom and Mike worked
together to have my ring made. My mom lives in NJ, we’re in MN. When Mike asked about any family rings my mom offered up the
stones from a ring that my father had given her. The ring was a gift purchased when my dad won a pretty penny in the
lottery. Having something
sentimental is bigger for me than anything. My mom has a jeweler friend who helped turn the old ring into a new one with all three of them in cahoots unbeknownst to be. When I called my mom the day
after the proposal she heaved a huge sigh of relief. She’d sent the ring via
certified mail and Mike had been so full of nerves waiting for it to arrive
that he couldn’t wait to give it to me, thus the casual at-home proposal. We
talked a lot about how sneaky they’d been.
I sent a
picture to my best friend with the question, “Want to go for a manicure
tomorrow?” and the rest we mostly let happen as people “noticed” things. I look
forward to sharing some of the oddness that is being an engaged couple. Like how everyone wants to know about the
ring and how big it is. Or how much you plan to spend on the wedding. Or the
questions, the constant questions, about what the wedding will be like. What about
the marriage? The wedding is a day, a big party and a lot of money. With the
wonderful goal and result of actually
being married. When I’ll be able to actually call him my husband. And in
the words of our kiddo, “Now you’ll be my real
stepmom!”